If, Then, Else

PrizeHonorable Mention in Video & Film
CompanyFoto Watermulder
ArtistNiels Watermulder
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My film is a ‘landscape’ in which I depict the search for my mother. Like a journey with an unknown destination. An impassable road. During my childhood she withdrew more and more.A flight from reality, far away and elusive. Delivering a struggle and wanting to survive. What feeling do I look for, when she could never express a lot of emotion? How can I understand who she truly was? A parent may never really come close. I explore a past that touches me and lives on in me and interprets the memories of a person who could never really be present. Voices from the depth, a flashback, unreal.